Speaking of Dieing

I have a friend. His aunt just died. It's was a pretty tragic circumstance. I don't know her. But I know him and have known some of the details of her situation. I feel for him and his families loss. She sounded like a wonderful person.
Life and Death. Things can change in an instance. You just never know what is coming around the corner. I've been feeling pretty craptastic about myself lately. I verbally summed it up once by saying I suck at life and  I'm doing it all wrong. When I said this I was thinking of our financial situation in particular. It's pretty desperate. We've got backed up bills, we don't pay rent, I started working more and we are still hundreds of dollars overdrawn each pay period. What kind of person am I if I can't keep my personal affairs in order? I felt like I was living some lie. Pretending to be just like everyone else but really I'm a big fat mess.
Then my friends aunt passed away. I read on facebook some pretty wonderful things about her. And I started thinking. No disrespect, but what if this lady had huge backed up bills, never bought a house, and was repeatedly overdrawn each month? Does any of that matter now? No, of course not. All her family and friends remember about her is her sense of humor and wonderful personality and fond memories. What would people say about me if I died? I'm pretty sure nobody would think less of me because of my financial stituation. I hope they could find nice things to say about me on facebook.
I'm trying to not define myself by this. I am still a good person, who has value, contributes to society, and has something to offer other people.
I will keep trying to make our situation better. I am not giving up. We will work on a budget and try to cut back expenses, etc. I'm just gonna try to stop worrying so much about it and getting depressed about it. Because, afterall, in the end it all doesn't matter.